is that you can’t remember it. Like you know it hurts, and you know it sucks, and you’ve got it in your memory to the point wear you can vaguely remember it but can’t quite grasp the feeling. Can’t quite grasp the full sensation of hurt. Its honestly mind blowing to me. Like i just broke my foot and when it happened i basically knew it was broken because once I felt the pain i remembered that that’s exactly what it had felt like when I broke my wrist but if you had asked me to recall or describe to you what it had felt like when i broke my wrist (or foot for that matter) i wouldnt have been able to. That’s the other funny thing about pain, its indescribable. Like you can say it aches or stings but every ache and sting is different and the only reason people understand your pain when you have a head ache or a paper cut is because they’ve been through it before. But like this doesnt just go for physical pain like it can be emotional or mental. i think that’s why things like that are so hard to get over, like how do you even let go of the pain from being betrayed or heartbroken when you can’t even describe it? (this also interestingly connected to love because how the fuck do you explain what love feels like to someone who’s never been in it?) and like fear is sooooooooooo driven by pain. Like being afraid of spiders or to do certain things like im hella afraid of gymnastics because i think ill land wrong and break my neck (and i realize thats kinda of more being afraid of death but sbi) but like you can also be afraid of getting in a relationship or even breaking up with someone because of pain though at the same time yeah you’ll go through hell but you’ll eventually forget what it felt like until it happened again. Maybe this whole forgetting thing is a defense mechanism of the human subconscious because if you remember how badly something hurt, you’d never do it again and then end up living your life as a hermit with no curiosity or spontaneity well anyway im 95% sure this post is too long for anyone to actually take the time to read but im just saying 

Need to become her.